A little while ago I was talking to someone who said that one of their friends had suffered from depression in the past and, along with this, another one of their friends had recently revealed that they were not in a good way. I do not think it came as a surprise for them to hear about what their first friend had been through, but that was not the case when it came to their other friend.

Hidden

The reason for this is that this friend had a good job and they appeared to have it all together. Hearing this came as a big shock to them, and sometimes they wonder how this person was able to cover up how they felt for so long.

I was not surprised by what I had heard, and there were a number of reasons for this. Over the years, I have written a lot about how the image that someone presents to the world does not always match up with what is going on within them and how shallow relationships can be.

The Result

Two people can then spend time together and they can know very little about each other. That's not to say they will not know what they have been doing, for instance; what it means is that they will not really open about how they have been feeling or what is bothering them

Each person will be playing a role and this will stop them from being able to be themselves. Creating the right impression ends up being more important than anything else, thereby stopping them from being able to truly connect to each other.

Looking Back

I know exactly what this is like as I had the need to look strong all the time and to hide how I felt. This meant that it seemed as though nothing fazed me, yet this was nothing more than an illusion.

What felt safe was hiding how I felt; if I did not do this, I believed that I would be rejected, abandoned and / or harmed. This went back to what had happened to me when I was growing up.

A New Perspective

I was carrying a lot of shame, and hiding my emotions was a way for me to try to stop people from realizing how flawed I was. I believed that if my mask dropped, so to speak, I would end up being exposed and the people in my life would end up walking away.

Part of me was not willing to go along with this and I knew that there was a way for me to change my life. I read numerous books and worked with different healers and therapists, which allowed me to see that there was nothing for me to be accused off.

Very Strange

During this time, the relationship I had with my own emotions gradually changed and I no longer wanted to play a role. What I also thought about is that there was no reason for me to feel ashamed of the mental and emotional issues that I had.

The positive feedback that I received from therapists and healers played a part in this, as did what I read in books. I went from believing that my inner experience was something to be accused off, to seeing as just part of the human experience.

Neutral

If I had always felt this way, I would have been able to do something about how I felt years before. The beliefs I had about what I was going through were what had held me back, not what I was actually going through.

The beliefs I had were the result of my upbringing and the experiences I had had through my life. If I had a physical problem, I'm sure I would have let someone know about it more or less straight away and got the right help.

A New Outlook

When someone realizes that there is nothing for them to be accused of if they have mental and emotional problems, they will not need to suffer in silence. This will allow them to look for the assistance that they need.

If another person makes out there is something wrong with them, it can show that they do not feel comfortable with their own emotions. The way that they talk to themselves is then being directed outwards.