What Are Bad Dreams Showing You?

All dreams have a protective function. They protect your mental health and your life.

The main messages contained in nightmares and bad dreams typically show you that you are making mistakes because you are not paying attention to all dangers, you are listening to the absurd thoughts sent by your anti-conscience to your conscience, and you are not analyzing your reality with objectivity.

Bad dreams typically show you that you think based on past concluding, which were influenced by various traumatic experiences. They also show you that you are not able to control your behavior in numerous situations.

In the past you believed that you were intelligent and that you were a good person besides your flaws, but today you know that your conscious level is too low and you are in fact a mentally retarded. The largest part of your brain belong to your satanic anti-conscience, and your tiny conscience must be developed.

This is a very unpleasant and disappointing truth, but you can become a sensitive genius by doing what God shows in your dreams.

God sends you important warnings in dreams because you have to stop doing what works against you. You have to eliminate your anti-consciousness through consciousness and become a wise and sensitive human being. This is how you will find peace, sound mental health, love, and happiness.

Otherwise, you will be exposed to numerous dangers and you will probably acquire a severe mental illness like most people in the world. Many people believe that only a small percentage of the world population is mentally ill, but the truth is that we are mentally ill from birth. Only those who manage to attain sanctity are mentally healthy.

Not all mental disorders are diagnosed and many of them were not discovered by the doctors of our historical time, even though they keep discovering new mental health problems all the time.

Today you know that every mental disorder must be cured based on the cultivation of goodness in our hearts because Carl Jung discovered how to translate God's words in dreams and how to cure mental health problems obeying the guidance I had in my dreams after following his steps.

This is a privilege. Your ancestors could not understand how and why mental disorders were formed, or how they could be cured.

Today you know that the largest part of your brain belongs to your satanic anti-conscience, which is as self-destructive as a bomb ready to explode. Your tiny conscience is a cover that covers the primitive and self-destructive demon existent in your brain to help you transform it into a peaceful and moralistic human being.

The fact that you can think is a very dangerous matter.

You must learn how to organize your thoughts based on goodness and show compassion to all human beings in all situations of life.

However, since you are a terrible demon with a tiny human conscience you have to make many efforts to preserve your conscience and transform your evil self into a human being.

The bitter truth is that when you are betrayed you hate compassion. You want to get revenge.

You have evil thoughts and reactions. You are constantly misled by your anti-conscience and by the hypocritical world. You sincerely pretend to have human feelings. Your goodness always depends on secondary intentions. You are a good person only with those you want to impress.

All human beings are in fact vampires with a microscopic human side. If you did not attain sanctity, you are not an exception. Therefore, you tend to be extremely selfish and have negative reactions like everyone else.

This is a bitter truth, but now that you have this knowledge you can open your eyes and see that the human behavior really is absurd and evil, and protect your poor conscience.

Until today you did not know that your mental health was in danger, but now that you have this knowledge you can preserve your sanity through dream translation and become an admirable human being.

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How Parents Can Help Their Children Fight Mental Illness

Children are the most beautiful creations of God. To raise a well-rounded child, many parents go the extra mile to establish a strong support system so that he or she feels competent and confident. But no one can imagine the sight of the parents which children are diagnosed with a mental illness. Parenting a child with mental illness can be quite challenging. In such a scenario, the best thing to do is to accept the problem and seek professional help at the earliest.

Sadly, mental disorders, be it in children or adults, lack societal acceptance, with most of the people struggling with a mental disease feeling terrified to come out in public. This kind of disparity is strongly driven by the lack of knowledge and awareness about mental disorders, which not only strengthens the myths surrounding mental illnesses, but also isolates and marginalizes the patients.

Very few mentally ill children receive proper treatment

For children with mental disorders, the best approach is to track the potential triggers and symptoms early on and consult a physician to make a diagnosis and initiate the treatment. Sadly, only few children receive proper treatment for their mental ailment due to the parents' ability to accept the reality, apart from the social stigmas attached to it. These disorders should not be taken lightly as some can even pass on to adulthood, making life much more difficult.

Listed below are some tips that can help parents openly accept the problem of mental illness in children and seek relevant treatment:

  1. Accepting the truth: It is the parents' responsibility to ensure a child's proper mental development and take an immediate action on noting even a slight deviation from the normal behavior. It is important for parents to accept the reality if the diagnosis confirms the problem. It will ensure that the required treatment is provided at the right time.
  2. Acquiring sufficient information regarding mental disorders: People in general lack knowledge and awareness about mental health and various illnesses, which makes it difficult to notice the symptoms in the first place. Here, educating oneself about various mental disorders can go a long way in identifying the problem before it goes out of control.
  3. Getting rid of prejudices against mental diseases: When a child goes through the debilitating symptoms of a mental disorder, it is important for the parents to share his or her pain and agony wholeheartedly. Being judgmental about the children's behavior should be strictly avoided. The focus should be on the triggers that prompted the child to have in a particular way.
  4. Not getting perturbed by the social norms: Parents should not allow social prejudices and negative mindsets come in their way when dealing with mental disorders. One should not waste time thinking about the pros and cons of revealing his or her child's mental health issue to the society and seek support from the near and dear ones to search for the best doctor and treatment center that can lead to child's recovery.
  5. Empowering children fighting mental ailment: Being positive and teaching children to be confident and optimistic towards life can be the best way to tackle the situation. It is important to be transparent with children and keep them updated about the side effects of using drugs and alcohol for self-medication.

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Anxiety and Movies

During my twenties, I loved thriller movies. The more exciting they were, the better. Tom Cruise all the way! It would give me a couple of hours of escapism, a rest from the everyday, and a sense of participating in life's most exciting events.

Then my 'dark years' began, and my world was stalled by anxiety and depression. Unable to care for myself, others, or sometimes even to get out of bed. Unexplained pains led me to the Emergency Room, and life felt like it was a painful waste.

This went on for half a decade, and needless to say that all while, I was disinterested in watching exciting movies. Nervous excitation, tension and adrenaline rushes were my everyday and I had no need of additional 'pumping up' in search of entertainment.

Physical effects

My pulse would race, my heart ache, my head spin, and the excitement in the movie soon made me feel claustrophobic, so that I had to be out of the room. It can be so hard to explain that anxiety promises real, physical effects, but they go undetected and disbelieved because doctors can not distinguish the changes in chemicals that we carry naturally. This leads to the frequent assumption of their being no obvious 'cause'.

It's not only us mortals that suffer from anxiety attacks though. We may be sitting there watching a movie star who themselves has experienced the stress of an anxiety disorder.

Friend-of-the celebrities Joe Beleznay is among the many celebrities who a spoken out about their anxiety and its physical effects. He told Rolling Stone: “It was heart palpitations, shortness of breath, coldness and shivers, strange stuff, and we'd be like, 'You're totally fine.


Mental health charity Mind backs up these observations on its website, which lists the physical sensations of anxiety:

  • nausea (feeling sick)
  • tense muscles and headaches
  • pins and needles
  • feeling light headed or dizzy
  • faster breathing
  • sweating or hot flushes
  • a fast, thumping or irregular heart beat
  • raised blood pressure
  • difficulty sleeping
  • needing the toilet more frequently, or less frequently
  • churning in the pit of your stomach
  • experiencing panic attacks

The list is long and fairly general, and rather than focusing on the nature of your symptoms, it is better to consider how much they affect your life: a severe anxiety disorder will be having a severe impact on your day-to-day living, and the enjoyment of simple pleasures such as an incidental movie are included in this.

While my own symptoms eased in time and with understanding, treatment and support from others; I still have a lower tolerance for excitment. So there's no Tom Cruise in my life any more!

If you're suffering from debilitating anxiety, please know that you are not alone.

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How to Open Up About One’s Mental Health Problem

Stress has become an inevitable part of everyone's life these days. With hectic work schedule and daunting deadlines to meet, most people have gotten accredited to living pressured lives. In such a fast-paced world, it is not easy for a person to have control over the rapidly changing circumstances, which has an adverse impact on his or her mind and body.

Consequently, in this ever-growing tussle, more and more people are getting exposed to various mental health conditions, such as anxiety and depression, which prevent them from fulfilling their potential. Sadly, not many people get help for their mental issues due to the stigma and myths surrounding such problems. Moreover, a majority of patients hesitated to discuss and share their mental health concerns with others, which often leads to a delay in seeking medical help.

As a result, many continue to struggle with their condition without any help and support, extremely leading to chronic disabilities and life-threatening conditions. One can combat the crippling symptoms by following certain self-help techniques. But first of all, one must be upfront to discuss his or her mental issues with a loved one so that adequate steps could be taken to mitigate the risks.

Listed below are some tips that can help an individual to open up about his or her mental illness:

Deciding whether to say it or not: The first thought would certainly be “let's not do it.” Talking about one's own mental condition can be tough, considering the negativity anticipating in the society regarding the issue. However, it is important to overcome this denial and be courageous to speak up about one's mental health condition and then seek medical help at the earliest.

Selecting a confidante: The society at large lacks knowledge and information concerning mental health. Due to this, most mental disorders are surrounded by myths, misconceptions, marginalization and stigma. Obviously, not everyone understands the sight of a person fighting a serious mental health condition. Therefore, it is important to look for some trustworthy people who can understand the real concerns, while keeping the sufferer's confidentiality intact.

Deciding when to discuss the issue: It is better to confide in someone before the situation goes out of control. While opening up about one's condition with friends or loved ones, it is important to select a person who is most willing to help and provide the needed support. Making oneself comfortable and decluttering the mind before initiating a conversation with a person he or she has confidence in can go a long way in creating a positive environment.

Letting the cat out of the bag: Once someone decides to confront the situation upfront, the next important step is to initiate the conversation regarding the struggle that he or she is dealing with. It is always beneficial to let the person know beforehand about the significance of the discussion so that he or she comes prepared for it.

However, one must keep in mind that through the conversation, it is not mandatory for someone to share every single details with one's confidante. Instead, one should only share the things he or she is comfortable sharing with and choose to keep intrinsic details private.

Seeking profession help

At Sovereign Mental Health Services , we take the utmost care to ensure that our patients are kept in a positive environment. Personalized attention, positive interactions with doctors and effective group therapies go a long way in helping people recover.

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Secondary and Tertiary Gain in the Borderline Patient and the Dysunctional Family

Sometimes people who have BPD engage in a process in which they use secondary gain as a way to perpetuate their illness. This is almost always an unconscious act. Secondary gain is something that motivates a person externally to engage in specific types of behavior. It is usually landed to when a person wants to avoid something, ie having to go out to a job, or having to do chores around the house. So, for example the person might say they can not walk and there before can not get up and out to go and take the bus to get to work, or they have a severe stomach ache and therefore can not do their assigned chores. For people with BPD this can also be referred to as something called a secondary handicap and this can lead to something called learned helplessness.

People who have BPD are made not born. No one is born with Borderline Personality Disorder. They learn the characteristics and take on the characteristics of the illness through learned behavior. My opinion is that BPD starts to percolate very early on, sometimes as early as the age of two when a child has a tantrum, which is not addressed properly by his or her parents. The child learns essentially that kicking their legs and screaming will get their parents to give in. Their parents reward this bad behavior and set up a lifetime of tantrums which only grow worse over time. Of course, Borderline Personality Disorder is not that simple but I believe its roots are in childhood tantrums.

Although parents may scapegoat their child with Borderline Personality Disorder, this is very much a family problem and a family issue. Even though BPD affects the person substantially it also needs to be addressed as a family issue with family therapy.

Dysfunctional families operate with very complex rules. Each person in the family has a role, or a function. One person may be designated as the “problem” person or the “sick” person, the mother might take on the role of “caretaker”, the father might have the role of “discipllinarian”. If you think of this family unit as a mobile, like you might see above a baby's crib, you will see that they circle round and round each other but never interact directly with each other.

A mother who acts in the role of the “caretaker” may be deriving what is called tertiary gain because she earns the sympathy of friends and other family members for having to look after that poor, sick girl. My husband basked in the warmth of tertiary gain for years because he “took care of poor, sick me”. The people in my community regard him a Saint George because of how he looked after me. He had a lot invested in that role and so it was in his best interest to make sure that I stayed sick.

Going back to the analogy of the mobile, when the person with BPD starts to get better with therapy and other interventional efforts, it is as if a hand has reached out and given the mobile a tweak. All the other parts start to shake and gyrate as it tries disappointingly to regain its equilibrium. This settles over time as long as the tweaking stops. This shaking and gyrating in families is what can sometimes lead a person with BPD to abandon their therapy. They have too much invested in their family unit remaining the same because even something negative is worth keeping if it is familiar.

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Understanding the Mental Health and Mental Illness

Mental illnesses have long been a major cause of death and disability. From 30 to 60 per cent of all patients who consult doctors do so primarily for complaints due to emotional disorders. Many productive individuals persistently maintain a chronically neurotic adjustment to life. And most individuals have minor emotional disorders often not recognized but of medical significance.

In spite of all this, the average person has a curious attitude toward mental health. He admits the importance of physical health, realizes that not everyone who's up and about is physically well, and may even go so far as to take some elementary precautions against disease. If not exactly intelligent about physical health, he is at least interested and will seek advice from doctors, quacks, or advertisements.

But in regard to his mental health his attitude until recently has been strangely indignant. If he thinks about it at all, he regards it as something quite foreign to him, much as he might give passing attention to the antics of a foreign bandit. He considers his friends and associates as in perfect mental health; when his attention is forced to this subject by the “sudden” sunset of a mental illness in someone he knows, he is surprised and shocked.

If the affected person is a member of his own family, he attributes the disease to overwork, to worry about finances, to physical illness, or to some other socially acceptable factor. If the affected person is merely an acquaintance, he is likely to consider heredity, alcohol, and syphilis as probable causes. Only rarely does he try to think intelligently as to why these things happen or attempt to inform him by reading or consulting specialists in the field. This attitude seems particularly strange when one considers the horror with which mental illness is generally considered.

But even when one does try to inform one's self, one meets with difficulties. In unguided reading, one finds weaknesses and confusion which may seem completely baffling.

Definite instructions for avoiding mental illness can not be given but a general understanding of the problems and processes involved frequently helps in the handling of minor emotional conflicts, the neglect of which is an important factor in the development of grave disorders. Then in addition to the problem of avoiding actual insanity, knowledge of the mechanisms leading to mental disturbance is the best guarantee against inefficiency, failure, and unhappiness in life.

Few realize that the psychiatrist deals not only with the actual insanity but with all those borderline conditions and maladjustment which are not ordinarily considered as associated with the category of mental Illnesses.

Types of Mental Disorders
Among the mental disorders are conditions so grave that even trained person recognizes that the patient is insane. These illnesses or psychoses, however, usually go unrecognized until they are so far advanced that treatment becomes exceedingly difficult. No severe mental illness ever comes suddenly “out of the blue.” The symptoms are present for months or years but usually are disguised as nervous breakdown, neurasthenia, or physical illnesses.

A second group enterprises persons who are not considered insane by their associates but who present various peripheral symptoms of almost any degree of severity. Morbid fears, compulsions, and obsessions, generally diagnosed as psychoneuroses with some modifying term, are particularly characteristic of this group. With these also may be placed chronic invalidism, when physical examination fails to reveal an adequate basis for the symptoms presented.

The third group consists of individuals who are apparently either mentally nor physically sick, but who fail to make a socially adequate adjustment. It includes certain types of alcoholics, delinquents, vagrants, and persons of unusual sexual behavior. In this group we may include also those persons who, while apparently making a good social adjustment, are never tremendously hampered by feelings of inadequacy, emotional instability, fears, and other personality disorders which interfere with efficiency and happiness.

Problem of children institute a fourth group
It is now generally recognized that difficulties of training, poor habits, school problems, temper tantrums, enuresis, and childhood delinquencies are evidences of emotional disturbance which may be corrected by proper investigation and treatment.

Feeble mindedness is an incurable congenital deficiency with a strong hereditary basis and, as such has little relation to mental or emotional disorders. It is primarily a problem of eugenics and sociology.

Even such an incomplete listing of psychological problems forces us to recognize that we can no longer regard mental illness or insanity as the only field for psychiatric investigation. Emotional disorders and personality problems, which may be regarded as less forms of mental illness, determine ever-present problems, touching all of us.

Theory of Mental Illness
From the scientific data at hand, we have no reason to conclude that heredity is a major factor in the causation of mental illnesses. In spite of this, heredity is commonly believed to be their most important cause. This belief is unfortunate, for the assumption that mental illness is caused by heredity leads to the conclusion that it can not be prevented or cured.

To assume that a mental illness is hereditary because it “runs in a family” is erroneous, because it is impossible to separate the effects of environment, or so-called “social heredity,” from those of physical heredity. By social heredity is meant the transference of behaviors of character or types of behavior by contact with and imitation of those persons with whom one lives, while physical heredity imposes the transmission of characteristics or types of behavior through the reproductive cells.

One has only to consider the abnormal environment which exists in a family in which there is a mentally ill person, to realize the great potential of a child in such a family becoming mentally unbalanced, even though no hereditary factors are active at all. In order to establish the hereditary character of a disease one must demonstrate that the disease was not caused by environmental factors and that it follows recognized laws of inheritance. None of these requirements has been met in the case of most mental diseases.

Furthermore, it does not follow that, even if a hereditary factor was present, the development of the disease could not be avoided by the manipulation of environmental factors. Here, we shall do well to turn our attention from the heredity theory of mental illness to what may be more profitable approaches.

Certain mental illnesses have a definite physical basis. For example, the psychoses of general paresis, arteriosclerosis, senility, injury, brain tumor, etc., are due directly to destruction of brain tissue.

Furthermore, delinquency, hallucinations, fears, compulsions, or other emotional disorders may be due to disturbances in the functioning of the glands of internal secretion; to infectious processes, the toxins of which give rise to states of delirium; the action of drugs; or to actual destruction of brain tissue. Such conditions may, and do, give rise to strange thinking and behavior. Their prevention and cure are problems of physical health, just as are the prevention and cure of any other physical disease.

On the other hand, ideas and emotional attitudes are more often a product of the social environment than of physical disease. A man may let his hair grow to shoulder length because his thinking has been deranged by the activity of the spirochete of syphilis in the cortex of his brain; or he may wear his hair long because he has been taught a religious belief in which long hair is worn as a symbol of the Christ like life. In the first case, we, explain and treat his unusual behavior on a physical basis. In the second, we explain it in psychological and social terms.

In the investigation and treatment of the abnormal behavior and thinking which measure the material of poor mental health, it is necessary both to investigate those physical distortions which may interfer with the complex functions of behavior and belief and to recognize those factors in the environment which may disturb these same functions. There is no real dichotomy or conflict in these approaches. In some cases physical disorders predominate, while in others mental and social situations are of major importance.

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How Sex Conflicts Can Affect the Mental Illness

The whole subject of sex has too long been shrouded in mystery and fear-fear nourished by ignorance and misunderstanding. Other fears of mankind have been dispelled by understanding. We have learned that many diseases are caused by bacteria and viruses and not evil spirits. Consequently we no longer feel an irrational terror of disease but try to control it by isolation, inoculation, and chemotherapy. If sexual matters were clearly understood and openly considered by all, the sexual fears and conflicts so prevalent in our civilization would disappear.

Perhaps the greatest obstacle to universally healthy sexual attributions is the fact that although many parents realize the value of sex education they feel inadequate and ill prepared to offer guidance to their children. They are still addicted with inhibitions, embarrassments, and a feeling that sex is unclean. As a result the child genes independently a distorted, unhealthy collection of misinformation and misinterpretations.

Logically there is no reason why the psycho-sexual development of the individual should be considered in a different light from other bodily functions. At each stage of development certain manifestations appear for which the child should be prepared. He is more harmed by anxiety and fear of things he does not understand in regard to sex than possible premature indulgence.

The injudicious handling of sex curiosity in young children may have lasting effects. Many of the barriers that prevent a normal, healthy response in adolescents towards members of the opposite sex have their origin in such early encounters. A deep-seated fear of sex may lead to repressions that make the young girl or boy shrink within a shell of reserve that they can not explain Years of maladjustment and unhappiness may result from a few moments of mismanagement.

The most effective safeguard against the development of sex conflict ill adolescence is a campaign of sound sex education for both parents and children, the guiding principle for parents should be honesty and an air of casual frankness. It is not necessary to attempt a full discussion of biology in one sitting, for such earnestness and overemphasis is as extreme as complete refusal to discuss the topic.

In answer to the child's questions about other things it is not customary to sit down and give him a full lecture on each subject. A simple, honest answer to his question is all that is needed, and although the original question may be followed by others for elation, the subject is soon dropped and the youthful mind follows its natural course to other things. The child's interest may appear first in questions about his own origin and if the answers are supplied without emotional display or concern the child accepts them matter-of-factually. These suggestions may seem obvious to us but it is amazing how many of the children who come under observation at the clinic are totally ignorant of the scientific fundamentals of sex.

Individual Problems Complicated
Various types of emotional reactions, only a few of which have been discussed, are usually operative in producing the symptoms exhibited by a given individual.

This is well illustrated by the following case report:
The patient was a young man in college, who came to the psychiatrist with the following complaints. For four years he has tried in vain “to get control of himself” and has become thoroughly discouraged and about “at the end of his rope.” He has had mastoid, sinus, and tonsil infections which he thinks have affected his mind. For the last three years he has been intensely unhappy and has made no friends, because “people despise him.” He says that he is a physical coward and is “mentally tortured by bad habits.” Ideas run through his head so that he can not sleep. At times he has felt that people were reading his thoughts and watching him on the street; and occasionally he believes he is going insane and has resolved to commit suicide.

This young man's childhood was unhappy, owing both to inconvenient neighborhood conditions and to the incompatibility of his parents. During most of their married life his parents were kept together more by financial and religious considerations than by any regard for each other. Finally, the father decided that the only way out of the difficulty was to break up the home.

Unable to talk it over reasonably with the patient's mother, and in order to avoid a painful scene, he sent the family to another city, where he had arranged a home for them. He also provided that the mother receive a certain sum of money each month for the support of herself and the two boys. At this point the father dropped out of the picture, as he went to another state to reestablish himself in business.

The boy's early social contacts were unfortunate. He had several prolonged illnesses, which affected him physically to such an extent that for a time he was unable to compete with other boys in physical things. Moving into a new community made this doubly hard. He was bullied unmercifully by other boys. Finally, he came under the domination of a boy who was living in the same apartment house, a boy somewhat older, rather stupid, but well developed physically.

The latter assumed a sort of protective attitude towards the patient. It was from this boy that the patient had his first sex instruction. He was taught to masturbate and at the same time told that it would hurt him physically. He confessed his first experience to his mother, who was horrified and shocked. She told him that this was only a confirmation of her belief that he took after his father in his Weaknesses. She told him that his father had always been sensual and impressed the boy with her disgust for masturbation and with her conviction that it was a great sin.

He made a resolution to stop, broke the resolution, made another, and with each attempt became more and more convinced that he was unable to combat this evil. He felt that he must conquer it in order to prove to himself and his mother that he was not a weak character, sinful by nature, etc. It became to him a sort of symbol of his whole struggle against the idea of ​​evil. If he could conquer this thing, it would mean that he could conquer the weakness he had inherited from his father, he would regain the respect and affection of his mother and be able to compete with his songer brother for her regard.

His idea about masturbation added to his difficulties with other boys. He felt that not only was he physically handicapped by the illnesses which he had had and his peculiar awkwardness but also that he was not equally moral to the other boys in his group. He heard from some of them that one could always tell a masturbator by the pimples on his face and the inability to look a man in the eye. He became even more self-conscious and developed a fear that his habit would be discovered. As a result, he avoided meeting other boys and stayed at home a great deal, neglecting physical exercise and recreation.

About this time there were in the vicinity several bullies. They were quick to recognize the patient's attitude, and on one or two occasions waylaid him on the way from school, challenging him to fight. He was scared and ran. On the only occasion when he did put up a light because he could not get away, he was severely beaten up by the two boys. This convinced him that he was a physical coward and added to his already growing disgust with himself.

In his university courses, this boy had shown an uncanny ability to pick out bits of information which tended to confirm certain things which worried him. He learned something of the biological theory of heredity and was strengthened in the belief that he had inherited his father's weakness of character. He learned something of scientific determinism, interpreting it to mean that man is in no way a free agent, and that it is impossible to develop one's will power if one does not already have it.

He heard of the evils of the so-called “inferiority complex” and having found a word under which he could sum up his problems, he was more than ever impressed by the magnitude of them despite he made good grades, success in this was of little value to him, in fact, to act as a compensation for the other failures. He therefore lost interest and began to neglect his studies. Above all things he needed that recognition, friendship, social contact, which his own feelings prevented him from getting.

It was found at the outset that any simple explanation and advice would not be of any value to the patient. He had ahead had such explanations from various competent faculty advisers. What was required was a thorough emotional reeducation. It is obvious from the account of the patient's life that his problems were deep-seated and involved such fundamental relationships as that of the patient towards his family, towards religion, and toward the problem of sex. The patient was unusually intelligent and cooperative throughout the procedure. He was seen at least three or four times every week; and although there have been times when he showed great depression; on the whole his progress has been marked.

At present this boy is handling the family situation well. He is no longer irritable, quarrelsome, and reclusive at home. He has been able to make several valuable acquaints on the campus. He is now quite able to apply himself consistently to his work, and his grades have improved. He has chosen a profession and, even though he is not yet ready to enter his professional training, he is exceptionally interested in it and had done a great deal of outside reading on related subjects. He has solved the sex problem satisfactorily and is not masturbating or doing any unusual amount of fantasizing about sex, things. He no longer believes himself a coward.

The Logical Result
With such histories it is impossible to escape the conclusion that the resultant mental condition is the logical and inevitable outgrowth of learned methods of behavior, that these methods with variations would probably have been adopted by almost anyone subject to similar situations, and that the final symptoms which appear to be so abnormal are essentially the reactions found in every normal person under certain circumstances.

These things hold true not only for the simple types of cases described above but for most of the other mental illnesses. So the patient with dementia praecox lives in a dream so deep that it shuts him off from all contact with reality. He derives his satisfaction from imaginary companions, activities, and achievements. This is quite the same method used by child and adult when they daydream gratification they have been unable to derive from reality.

The dementia praecox patient behaves like a child in getting pleasure from the infantile activities which the adult has so outgrown that they seem senseless and disgusting. This finds an exact parallel in the normal adult who, when meeting an obstacle which is is unable to overflow, exhibits childish temper or drops the work to indulge in play.

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Borderline Personality Disorder and Anxiety

I have stated many times that I am not a psychiatrist or medical doctor but I have been thinking a lot about how anxiety affects people with BPD and have come to the conclusion that BPD is closely connected to anxiety. Why do I say this? Because I think nearly every symptom of BPD is engendered by a person's anxiety. For example:

Fear of being alone

When you think about being left alone as a child what do you remember? Panic, right? Panic strongly spurs a fight or flight reaction. It floods the body with adrenaline. People who are experiencing an anxiety attack know the symptoms all too well: the hammering heart, the sweaty palms, the inability to focus. For people with BPD, the symptoms go hand-in-hand with fear of abandonment and loss. Feeling stressed out clearly contributes to anxiety attacks. People with BPD are acutely intolerable to feeling stress and it only follows that they are also susceptible to anxiety. I myself suffered from anxiety for many years but it went undiagnosed until about 2000.

Anxiety Attacks

It is thought that as many as half of all people who have Borderline Personality Disorder also suffer from anxiety disorder. These feelings of sheer panic and terror can last anywhere from ten minutes to half an hour. If you have ever suffered a panic attack I do not have to tell you how awful the feeling of being short of breath, shaking or trembling, the fear of dying and the often tingling feelings and numbness can be.When I had my first anxiety attack I thought I was having a heart attack.

An anxiety attack can happen suddenly and most people are completely taken off guard the first time it happens. There is often little to no warning the first time it happens. If you continue to suffer from anxiety attacks you will eventually learn to recognize the symptoms of the sunset of an attack.

The best news about anxiety is that there are ways to address it. For many people practicing mindfulness meditation helps a great deal. Jon Kabat-Zinn, the “founder” of mindfulness meditation has helped many people through his career.

In addition to practicing mindfulness meditation some people find low doses of anti-depressant medication helpful.Be wary of taking benaodiazepine, however because they are extremely addictive. If you have BPD, the last thing you need on top of that is an addiction issue. If your psychiatrist prescribes a benzodiazepine, question him about it closely before taking it.

Treatment will depend on severity

Not everyone with BPD who has anxiety needs treatment for it. Some can manage their symptoms through meditation once per day, doing life affirmations and spending time with friends

Anxiety is a disorder, not a symptom

Although your anxiety may present itself as a symptom, it is in fact, a disorder. People who have anxiety are able to live complete, happy and healthy lives. The disorder simply needs to be managed, sometimes aggressively but always managed.

For many people struggling with mental health issues, anxiety is a disorder, not a symptom. Anxiety is specifically what needs to be cured, and then the person can live an emotionally healthy life. Although the reason people who have BPD develop anxiety is not very well-understood I see the two as a revolving door. I have anxiety, therefore I do not want you to separate from me. You separating from me causes me anxiety. It becomes self-perpetuating. As well, because BPD is all about shifting moods, that alone can cause great anxiety because the person does not know from one moment to the next how they will feel and how those feelings may or may not manifest themselves.

Fighting BPD Anxiety

In my opinion, the person suffering from BPD will never get their condition under control until they begin to address the underlining anxieties issues: what starts the ball rolling, what can I do to self-soothe and comfort myself, how can I learn to recognize it before it happens.

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Things You Should Know About Schizophrenia

What is Schizophrenia?

Schizophrenia is a severe and chronic mental disorder that affects how a person feels, thinks and behaves. It is a very serious disorder which affects a person's ability to distinguish between what is imaginary and what is real. Patients suffering from Schizophrenia are withdrawn or unresponsive, and it is difficult for them to express normal emotions in social situations.

Contrary to Common myths Schizophrenia is nothing like Multiple Personality or Split Personality Disorder. Most of the Schizophrenic patients do not pose dangers to people around them and are not violent. The symptoms of different schizophrenic patients are different. Contrary to common perceptions Schizophrenia is not caused as a result of poor parenting, childhood experiences and lack of willpower.

What are the symptoms of Schizophrenia?

Schizophrenia symptoms start showing up between the ages of 16 to 30. In some cases, children have Schizophrenia too. Schizophrenia symptoms are of three types typically positive symptoms, negative symptoms, and cognitive symptoms.

Positive Symptoms

Positive Schizophrenia Symptoms are symptoms that are psychotic in nature and are not usually seen in a healthy person. All positive symptoms involve losing touch with reality. Some of the positive symptoms seen in patients with Schizophrenia include

• Hallucinations: Seeing, hearing, feeling smelling or tasting something that does not actually exist. It is basically an actual perception of something that does not exist. Usually, schizophrenic patients experience hearing multiple identical voices that comment or command the individual to act in a certain way.

• Delusions: Delusions are false ideas that seem real to the patient even though strong evidence exists that they do not. Some patients think they are famous social figures, some think that someone is trying to spy on them.

• Disorganized Behavior: Schizophrenic patients experience behaviors like unprovoked and inappropriate outbursts, uninhibited and impulsive actions. Patients have problems with hygiene or selecting appropriate clothes as per the weather. Patients may feel agitated, tense, and anxious without any apparent reason.

• Disordered Thinking and Speech: Losing thought during conversations, giving answers that are not related to the questions, jumping from one topic to another without apparent logical reasons are some of the actions that portended Disordered Thinking in affected patients.

Disordered Speech includes actions like individuals creating their own sounds and words that do not actually exist and does not make sense. They may keep repeating words and ideas without a reason and may speak a lot without getting to the point and providing irrelevant and unnecessary details.

Negative Symptoms

Negative Schizophrenia Symptoms are related to disturbances to normal behaviors and emotions. Some of the common and strong negative symptoms portrayed by patients suffering from Schizophrenia include

• Affective Flattening: This is a very common symptom seen in schizophrenic patients. Patients with this symptom image relatively unresponsive and immobile facial expressions. This is usually accompanied by poor eye contact and reduced body movement and body language.

• Alogia: Alogia is trouble with speaking due to mental defect. Patients affected with Schizophrenia demonstrate a reduction in verbal fluency and total speech output. Sometimes the patients struggle even with giving brief answers to questions.

• Avolition: Avolition reiterates to a lack of desire or will to take part in activities. This also involves loss of motivation. Patients demonstrate avolition in different ways. Some patients image discrimination towards their surroundings and sit still for long periods of time. Some patients display a lack of interest in social activities or work.

Cognitive Symptoms

Cognitive Schizophrenia Symptoms are subtle for some and severe for others. Some of the cognitive symptoms commonly seen include

• Dementia: Schizophrenia in patients causes Dementia. Dementia affects that part of the brain that is used for memory, language, learning, decision making, thinking, and reasoning.

• Reduced Executive Functioning: People affected by Schizophrenia experience reduced executive functioning. This means they have trouble in paying adequate attention, manage time, plan and organize, switch focus and remember details. Affected patients have problems in maintaining relationships and doing things independently. Day to day functioning becomes difficult for affected people.

• Attention Deficit: Schizophrenic patients experience difficulty in focusing and paying attention.

Schizophrenia can not be cured but a careful diagnosis and lifelong treatment can help the affected patients to enhance the quality of their life. Constant care and support are extremely integral to help a Schizophrenic patient survive and live a better life.

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How to Improve Mental Health Naturally

Mental health problems, like depression and anxiety are experienced by more people worldwide than any other physical disorder. According to predictions from the World Health Organization, by 2020 depression will cause greater disability than any other mental or physical disorder.

This is a severe problem and it is common sense that we find effective solutions for these problems. To-day most mental health problems are treated with psychological and pharmacological interventions. The most common psychological treatments are known as cognitive-behavioral therapies (CBT), while antidepressants are the most common class of medication used to treat both depression and anxiety.

Other interventions are also effective, although not promoted as much as the previous mentioned treatments, including exercise, relaxation / meditation, and sleep-based interventions. Herbs and nutrients are also often used to treat mental health problems, but there is doubt whether they actually work.

The following more commonly used natural supplements will be reviewed to see if there is actually any evidence to support their efficiency.

1. Omega-3 fish oils. There has been a substantial amount of research on the effects of fish oil, mostly in the area of ​​depression, anxiety and attention deficit hyperactivity disorder (ADHD). The overall evidence suggests that fish oil is moderate effective for these conditions. In several meta-analyzes it had been confirmed that fish oil could improve depressed symptoms that occurred in major depressive disorders and bipolar disorder. The most effective fish oils for mental health are those ones that contain greater concentration of EPA (a type of omega-3 fat)

2. St John's wort. This herb has always been very popular for the treatment of depression and there has been many good quality studies in several meta-analyzes. St John's wort has been shown to be effective for the treatment of depression. However, research on stress, ADHD and other mental health problems have not been so convincing. The major problem with St John's wort is that it interfaces with many medications.

3. Saffron. Positive studies on its effect on depression has increased over the last decade. Follow up studies have all confirmed that saffron is effective for the treatment of depression. In comparison with antidepressants such as Prozac and Trofanil, Saffron has proven to be as effective, but with less side effects. Although it is the most expensive spice in the world, only a small amount is needed, which make the cost quite affordable (approx $ 30 – $ 40 a month). Another advantage is that in combination with pharmaceutical antidepressants, it was more effective than the antidepressant alone.

4. Rhodiola rosea. This herb was originally used in Russia to enhance athletic performance. It was later discovered to be effective for stress, feelings of burnout, and depression. A few good quality European studies have indicated that rhodiola is helpful for improving mood and seems to be particularly helpful for people with stress related fatigue. People who feel run-down, find it hard getting out of bed in the morning, lack motivation / drive, experience energy slumps in the afternoon, and feel quite flat, may also benefit from rhodiola. Natural practitioners often refer to this condition as 'adrenal fatigue'.

5. Theanine. This is an amino acid derived from green tea and is claimed to help people experience a relaxed and calm state. Some good studies indicate that it can reduce levels of stress hormones in the body (eg cortisol) and can move people's brain waves into 'alpha' states. Alpha brain waves are associated with relaxation and meditation. People with a mind that is constantly racing report positive effects from theanine. It has also shown to improve sleep in children with ADHD, and was even helpful for people with schizophrenia.

This is just a selection of herbs and nutrients with good research-based support for their mental health benefits. There are other options available, including s-adenosyl-methionine (SAME) for depression. Kava for anxiety, B-vitamins for stress, and glycine / magnesium for sleep.

If you are interested in using natural supplements, make sure you purchase them from a reputable company. Preferably an Australian one because Australia has the most rigorous testing for natural supplements in the world.

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Research Opens New Doors for Treatment of Problem Gambling

Behavioral addictions, which are different from addictions to psychoactive substances, have also been found to produce short-term rewards that encourage people to show persistent behavior towards facing its consequences. Many people with behavioral addictions like pathological gambling, compulsive sexual behavior, kleptomania, compulsive buying, etc., suffer from an intense urge or craving prior to initiating the behavior. Behavioral addiction like problem gambling is a serious brain disorder caused due to an array of psychological, biological and sociological factors.

In many people, gambling, be it compulsive or pathological, is associated with serious problems. However, there is a slight difference between compulsive gambling and problem gambling. While compulsive gambling can be categorized as an impulse-control disorder, problem gambling is a more serious form, wherein the person continues to gamble specifically facing consequences such as disruption of life.

While there are traditional methods to treat the conditions, researchers at the University of British Columbia's Department of Psychology and Center for Gambling Research have discovered the part of the brain that is involved in behavioral addictions. Thus, the treatments that target this part of the brain can provide a long-term reply to people with problem gambling.

Treatment to overcome strong urges

In the study published recently in the journal Translational Psychiatry, the scientists revealed that any treatment targeting insula part of the brain (region involved in behavioral addictions) could help people with gambling problem overcome their urges. According to the experts, insula has been identified as a hub for predictions in several studies. While there was an increased brain activity in parts of the frontal cortex of the brain, a close link was also observed in activities in the insula region, as seen in case of drug addiction.

It was observed that every aspect of gambling, including lights, sounds of the slot machines, smell of casino and likewise, act as strong triggers for the patient. Failing to control these triggers ever leads to a relapse. A treatment targeting the insula region will not only help in curbing the urges, but also assist in toning down the responses to the cravings. Lately, studies are being conducted to explore the effects of naltrexone, a medication used to treat alcohol and heroin addiction, in changing these brain responses in problem gamblers.

Treating problem gambling

Problem gambling is “highly disabling both to the individual and to society, often leading to suicide, job loss, and criminal behavior,” observed an old study conducted by American Friends of Tel Aviv University.

Defining gambling as a chronic disorder, the study suggested treating the condition with drug therapy such as naltrexone. “Drug therapy with naltrexone should last for at least two years and be completed with other treatment,” the study disclosed.

Additionally, the patients can also undergo group therapies or seek support from counselors to kick the habit. In severe cases, careful monitoring and holistic treatments are required to avoid a relapse. Moreover, therapies like cognitive behavioral therapy (CBT) can also be helpful in treating the condition.

Recovery road map

It is good to indulge in some life-changing practices, such as practicing meditation, regular physical exercise or playing a sport to relax the mind and keep compulsive thoughts at bay. However, if the symptoms continue for a longer period, even when the trigger has subsided, it is important to seek immediate psychiatric help.

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Practicing Patience Is An Important Technique For People With Borderline Personality Disorder

How many times have you been standing on line in the grocery store waiting for the cashier to just hurry up with the person in front of you already! Why is she going so slowly? Does not she know you are already late? Well, of course not. How could she know? So you stand there, doing a slow burn simmering as yu wait for her to check one more price.

This is one of the biggest problems for people who have Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD). They want action and answers and they want them NOW . Waiting is not their long suit. But if you step back and take a look at the situation, it is easier to see what is going on.

People with BPD often want instant gratification whether that be in a romantic relationship, between a mother and a child or between a hapless clerk in the supermarket. In many cases, it is what drives us to erupt into a flurry of uncontrollable rage.At the risk of incurring your wrath, I challenge you to stop and do a breathing exercise when you feel like you are about to blow. It will slow your heart rate down and give you a moment or two to regain your composition. Ask yourself, “Is this something I am going to care about in six month?” If the answer is no, then allow the stressor to drift away. You will feel so much better.

Practicing Patience is not complicated

Practicing patience means more than just taking a deep breath and counting to ten. It means looking outside of yourself and assessing the situation in a way that does not relate to yourself. It means doing something over and over again until it is right. It means repeating what you just said to your husband a hundred times until he finally hears what you are saying. Learning to be patient means learning to put your desire for instant gratification on hold while you wait for something you need or want.

Practicing patience with children is especially difficult and that often requires counting to ten but it can be achieved in other ways as well.

Slow down and remove as many stressors from your life as possible

If you find yourself being generally impatient try removing as many external stressors in your life as possible. Slow down and try not to be ruled by your wristwatch for a day, if possible. Weigh and measure your words carefully before speaking them. This will go a long way toward giving you some time to reflect on your goals and how you want to go about achieving them.

There are many benefits derived from practicing patience. The most important benefit you will probably see right away is the way your blood pressure goes down. You will also see small improvements to your mental health. Studies have shown that patient people experience less depression and who would not want that?

Being patient benefits others as well

Being a more patient person also benefits those around you. It makes you a better, more understanding friend and allows other people to relax when in your presence because you are more relaxed.

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Activation of NDMA Receptors May Help Identify Psychiatric Disorders

The word “Schizein” that means “to part” or “split” in Greek, defines the feature of “schizophrenia,” which is reckoned as a “split mind” condition. Not to be confused with split personality or multiple personality disorder, schizophrenia is a severe mental condition, characterized by some (if not all features), such as emotional blunting, intellectual deterioration, social isolation, disorganized speech and behavior, delusions and hallucinations.

According to the National Institute of Mental Health (NIMH), schizophrenia affects over 1.1 percent of the American adult population. Unfortunately, the cause behind the onset of schizophrenia in some people is yet to be understood, let alone explained; since, most treatment interventions revolve around the effective management of the symptoms and leading fulfilling lives.

Published in the journal Experimental Physiology, researchers have unrecognized an innovative way of utilizing proteins in nerve cells to identify patients with schizophrenia. This new approach to diagnosis, which involves stimulation of N-methyl-D-aspartate (NMDA) receptor, can also be utilized to discern depression in people. The study was conducted collaboratively by the researchers of Yale University, the John B. Pierce Laboratory (New Haven) and the VA Medical Center (West Haven, Connecticut).

Physiological measure for diagnosing psychiatric disorders

Based on several animal studies, NMDA receptor – responsible for mediating fast synaptic transmission in the central nervous system (CNS) – can also regulate the release of arginine vasopressin (AVP) in the bloodstream. By stimulating AVP release in humans with a salt solution, it was noticed that the findings were consistent with the prior animal studies, ie, participants challenged by depression exhibited an increase in AVP and others grappling with schizophrenia displayed a decrease in AVP.

As of now, the in vivo assessment of the NMDA receptors in humans is not a possibility; therefore, the findings of the study are of great value, such that it uses the unique blood-based biomarker to assess the two mental disorders. The discovery of this approach has the potential to evaluate any undercoming vulnerabilities of the patients harboring depressive symptoms or schizophrenia during psychiatric screening. In practice, it is significant for the purpose of early diagnosis of illnesses as overlapping symptoms can conceal and mislead diagnosis.

Although schizophrenia can occur at any age, it oftentimes manifests during adolescence or early adulthood. The early signs and symptoms of schizophrenia are generally wide-ranging in nature; it can vary from subtle changes in behavior to experiencing the symptoms of depression. Particularly during adulthood, it can be exceedingly difficult to detect the disease as it can be masked by the normal adolescent characteristics, such as poor academic performance or social withdrawal.

According to Handan Gunduz-Bruce, co-author of the study, “This is the first objective, a physiological marker for two major psychiatric disorders that, once fully developed into a clinical test, can allow for earlier and more accurate diagnosis, and selection of more appropriate medicines for patients. ”

Mental well-being key to healthy living

Depression and schizophrenia are serious mental disorders that debilitate the condition of those coping with these disorders. People diagnosed with schizophrenia are at an increased risk of suicide, bouts of depression, delusion, etc. Moreover, they are at an increased risk of developing unhealthy coping mechanisms, such as engaging in substance use to self-medicate the symptoms.

Similarly, individuals grappling with depression fail to connect and maintain healthy relationships with others, lose joy in activities that used to bring them pleasure and oftentimes isolate themselves. To prevent the exacerbation of these mental disorders, one is recommended to seek treatment intervention at the earliest. If you or your loved one is battling the symptoms of mental disorders, it is imperative to seek professional help. Sovereign Health offers behavioral treatment for individuals coping mental disorders, substance abuse and co-occurring disorders.

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The Real Meaning Of Dreams And Your Mental Health

The fact that the real meaning of dreams was discovered by Carl Jung became obvious when I could continue his research based on the information I had in my dreams, and discover the existence of an absurd and evil primitiveness conscience that occupied the largest part of the human brain.

The information I had was very different from the false information of the commercial world. The special information I had in dream messages proves that the unconscious mind discovered by Carl Jung really is God's mind.

Now that the satanic origin of the human conscience was discovered you have to realize that you must always look for signs of absurdity and evilness in your thoughts and in your behavior, and also when you analyze other people's personality and their attitude in various situations.

Your dreams help you verify the depth of your absurdity and evilness in order to correct your behavior and help you think based on God's wisdom. They also help you analyze other people's behavior and identify various signs of absurdity and evilness in their personality.

God helps you become a psychologist and understand how the human brain works. He gives you many lessons in every dream.

Now you know that your satanic anti-conscience never stops trying to destroy your conscience through craziness and despair. So, you know that you must protect your conscience and stop accepting absurd and evil thoughts as if they were inoffensive and they could be helpful.

Now you know that you must be suspicious and always look for the real intention of every thought that pops up in your mind.

Your dreams help you understand the influence of your anti-consciousness in your mind and in your behavior and in other people's words and reactions.

Everyone inherits a satanic anti-conscience. Some people seem to be more balanced, but everyone inherits a demon in their brain. The demon can be buried in their psyche or it can be very powerful and destroy their conscience.

Everyone's anti-conscience must be eliminated through consciousness because it is very dangerous and it can invade the conscious surface at any time.

Even when it is deeply buried in someone's psyche it can suddenly invade the conscious surface like a volcano.

Dream analysis and therapy is a deep process of transformation that works as a mental health treatment, spiritual purification, and mind empowerment at the same time.

The transformation of your personality depends on a behavioral change. You have to stop acting like a cruel demon that merely pretends to be human and become a true human being.

You have to be able to understand other people's pain and show compassion. You have to respect your moral principles. You must have the behavior of a saint.

Sound mental health depends on goodness and wisdom.

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A Mental Health Counselor’s Impression of Warehousing People

Perhaps, early in my career as a mental health counselor, I could not consider the reality of mental health warehousing. Landing my second job cave me the financial power to leave a ghetto apartment in the most murderous city on the East Coast. Since I was only just entering a Master's Program, I felt extremely privileged. As a result, I aligned myself with my supervisor and other more experienced workers. Without credentials, I was focused on working with people who would get my back.

One day, I received a client and was ready to get to work on housing issues, when I found out that she came attached with a more experienced case manager. Although not very talkative, she did tell me very clearly that she did not want to go to a particular boarding home, the largest such facility in the county. When I spoke to the case manager who would later be my supervisor when I got promoted, he was clear about the woman's future. She had to go to the unwanted boarding home.

“Wow, that girl is really sick!” I heard the coworker who worked the gravity shift at the crisis house say.

Read more … “I do not get it,” I said, “I do not see why she can not live where she wants to.

“That girl is very sick, I can just tell by the way her eyes roll to the side” said my co-worker

I deferred to experience. Sure I had been hospitalized for six months myself, but I knew better than to make waves. The woman was labeled a schizophrenic and got shipped away to the very place she most did not want to go. She had been right not to trust any of us. For us, she was just protocol.

Once I graduated my Master's program and was promoted, I visited the infamous boarding home which was buried in the New Jersey Pine Barrens in the far reaches of the county. Out in the pines, there were few stores, lots of sand and aged pine trees, which growth was stunted by fire. The pines were where most boarding homes were located. I admire the scenery as I drive out.

The infamous boarding home's one-story buildings were made of quarter inch plywood and styled in rows like chicken coops. There was no insulation from the elements in any of the buildings. They were long and full of small rooms with cots and no furniture. At the end of each row of rooms there was an open rec room where open vats of warm bug juice sat out under the dim lighting. There were no fans to drown out the buzz of the flies. These inside rooms reicked of sickness. The chipping linoleum floors were being mopped with cheap chemical stink water that reinforced the sick feel. Almost all the clients were either gone to a day program or had walked the three miles to the store. I could not even begin to picture what the place looked like when it was full.

When I finished I followed the owner to the front office. The owner's daughter had been in my sister's class at our posh private school before anorexia had lowered my social standing. Back at the office, the owner had barraged me with gossip and information about the school. By then I was learning to undersine the subservience facade of the mental health client. As a result, I found myself struggling not to be offensive to this woman who had helped pay for my rearing.

Once freed to collect my thoughts, I recall betting to myself that they treated mentally ill better back in the Middle Ages. So many good people I had worked with for years were living lives like this and I had never given it any consideration.

In a year, I made enough money to fund a move to the west coast. Within six months of moving, I made a risky job transfer into setting up services in a section eight housing authority facility. When I found out my supervisor had a cocaine habit, I stopped heeding her. Like a vigilante. I leaked info openly to a community activist and to newspapers and was starting to face unforeseen levels of threats.

One day, a resident who had pointed out the local drug kingpin to me, told me that I was deeply loved by all the residents, even the shady ones, but that they were all worried that I would end up becoming a resident of the building myself.

Within a week, after an unsuspected threat from a friend from my ghetto days who, it turned out, was connected, I was picked up out of a ditch on a mountain pass outside of Butte Montana. I had been harassed by police for the past two days since they had halted my escape to Canada. Finally, I surrendered to them.

Two months in, just when I had finally started to accept the very poor treatment I was receiving, I was transferred to the most chronic unit. The temperature inside was below freezing. There would be icicles inside the window that sat above my head. It was almost as bad as the boarding home in South Jersey. When I first entered those dank halls, I felt destined to have with the subservient merirement of the thirty year residents. I was given old, dirty clothing so that I could layer up among the crowded halls. My appearance and sense of self declined. Fungus off the bathroom tiles great under my toenails and warts covered by hands.

Now, I am a Licensed Marriage and Family Therapist, the survivor of a schizophrenia diagnosis, and an award-winning author. I still work in an inner city day program with great people, many of whom suffer the effects of mental health warehousing. It is my torment over the marginalization that accompanies a diagnosis that keeps me writing.

I write because now I know that there are so many untold stories that happen when vulnerable individuals get put in institutional warehouses. I write because twenty years ago a woman was committed to squalor and I did nothing. I write because I once was so arrogant so as to think it could not happen to me. I write to better express love and support to the people I work for. I write because I know that warehousing and mental health progressively decline together and are very hard to come back from. I write because my efforts to help others escape are often futile.

In this age of heightened social disparities, the propensity for dehumanizing people is on the rise. Now that the public is finally able to see the way that black men are shot indiscriminately by police. Now that American prisons are disproportionately filled with mentally ill, political-prisoners of color. Now we all know that years of slaughter in the Middle East can be traced back to fabricated evidence. Still, we blame all violence on the mentally ill, immigrants, and African-Americans. We think we can make ourselves safer by taking more power.

Already there are too many stories left untold that fill our inner-cities, our rural compounds and our otherwise ghettoized zones.

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